Monday, October 6, 2014

Shameful addiction

I would get angry if people came over to my house. I felt dirty and ugly on drugs. I would spend so much time staring in the mirror with a look of disgust while I flipped my hair all over trying to make myself look good.. Not too mention the constant outfit changing because nothing looked good on me. At least I thought so. I was shy and self degrading going anywhere. I was sad and lame!

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

working out instead of doping out

I don't really like going to the gym.. I don't. Although the benefits and healthy living makes it worth it, I still don't enjoy going.. When I quit drugs I immediately started working a job that you get a hell of a workout and I lost some serious pounds fast. It felt GREAT! Then I got promoted to my own office, slower paced job and joined the gym. I would have never done any of this as an addict.. I would have continued to sit at home on my butt getting high and feeling sorry for myself all day.. Ummm no thanks!