The bad feelings drugs give you

Random happiness

No more drugs

I meet people who talk so openly about smoking pot like they think I still use. You have no idea how great it feels to say I don't do drugs until you are there. I used to think I was so cool when I bragged about my drug use. Some friends and I would sit around going on and on about what we used and how much trying to out do each other.  Wow that was so ridiculous! I can't believe how stupid I was.

Quick kick to recovery

My recovery process was a hell bound challenge. I did not go to meetings, I did not have a mentor.. I'm not bragging just making a point. I was dealing with the whole losing my kids in the divorce to an alcoholic ex husband who lied and manipulated people into believing I was the problem. I had already chosen to quit drugs and better myself but he turned me into a monster in the courts and I wasn't allowed to speak in my defense. I was basically told I will lose everything I have and give it all to a man who beat me, verbally abused me, tried to kill me, was an alcoholic and a drug addict and I was supposed to be good with that. That was the hardest point in my recovery.  I had many moments of running away, finding a dope dealer and shooting up enough drugs to kill myself. That was where I was at in Nov 2011, then again throughout 2012. I was very angry and hurt. My name and reputation has been smeared and still has been to anyone who will listen to him. He tells everyone I am a trashy piece of crap who wants nothing to do with her kids. I don't understand why he says this. I don't understand why anyone would believe this. All I can do is just push on day by day and hope...believe...and dream.

The drug and alcohol comparisons

I really don't like reading peoples blogs about alcoholics that compare having a drink being equal to doing illegal drugs. Although the affects alcohol can take on a person being the same as drugs. It can alter your mood, affect your way of life, and potentially be dangerous for your health. The difference is, illegal drugs are just that..illegal. Alcohol is easy to get, it is legal in most places and the affects are much slower on your brain than drugs.
Having a drink occasionally does not make you an alcoholic. Having 1 drink doesn't necessarily alter your abilities.  The effects are usually shorter lived than drugs and play a much lesser impact than someone injecting Heroine or snorting Cocaine.
Heroine, cocaine, meth and its little friends are made of toxic chemicals your body cannot process. Alcohol has many natural ingredients you ingest in many foods. Now I am not saying alcoholism is a good thing. It definitely is NOT.
People have asked me if I drink. I say, every now and then. Do I get drunk? No. Do I drink regularly? No. Can I go out somewhere and turn down a drink? Yes! Having a drink here and there is not the same as having drugs. It is legal!
Now some may say, smoking a joint or doing a line once every few months isn't a bad thing. Yes it is! First of all, you can't just walk into Walmart and buy illegal drugs, therefore you must break the law to get them. That makes it wrong. Even in legal marijuana states you MUST have a prescription to purchase marijuana,  which then makes it medical, not illegal. 
Overall, over drinking,  yeah it is a bad thing.. but people, please stop treating it as, ' if you have one drink, you are an alcoholic drug addict'
there is a HUGE difference!

Dope is NOT cool

I still remember feeling bad for people that were straight arrows, not doing drugs. I figured their lives must be so dull and boring.  I thought it was so cool and fun that I could have never imagined life sober. I feel like such a fool now! I could have accomplished so much more and greater things at a younger age if I wasn't so addicted. I guess we all live and learn. It still makes me laugh though. Life has been the complete opposite of dull and boring for sure!

Genie in a bottle