Yes I know, we are ALL stressed out.. stress bites! I am stressed almost everyday but then there are those days where everything just reams you over and over until you explode. I get those days, they test my ability to stay sane. Sometimes it takes instances and screaming at someone on the phone in a crowded department store to get it out...yes that was my day yesterday but I don't need to dig into details.
I have been pushed and pulled so many times that ever fiber of my being is on the verge on shattering all over the floor. Over the years I have learned to ease myself. Oh it is not easy at all. It takes A LOT of mental training on my part. When I first started using drugs I was diagnosed with an anger disorder that took me 12 years to learn to control. It isn't perfect but it is better. I can balance my stress and anger in the workplace where it is the most difficult because you have to be friendly and focus. Not exactly fun when you have something on your mind, but hey that is life!
Before these last few years, stress was blocked by drug use. The angrier and more depressed I got, the more I took or smoked or whatever I felt like inhaling. I don't know where I would be if that was still my path.
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