I never considered myself to be weak or spineless until I started writing about my past. Though I am definitely a lot stronger and more courageous than I was I used to consider my self "in control". Wow was I WRONG. The day I quit using for the last time I would have never thought on the day before that, that I would actually go through with it. As I have written before, on that morning I packed up everything I could and bolted at 80mph away from that house and the man I was married to. It was my ONLY choice. It took me years of contemplating and telling myself I couldn't do it, to actually just not think about it and go. I didn't have a plan.. just my own spark that ignited on a very damp and sodden surface that day. I am very proud of myself for finding my strength. I wouldn't go back to that life for anything in the world.
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