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Wasted and wasting time

The sober clock watch

Life is rough being a addict

I still have a hard time trying to figure out why I thought I had it made when I was high all the time. I was usually cranky, rude, worried, needy,  nagging.. just to name a few, but still I thought everything was great. After I went into recovery I understood that nothing at all was ever smooth and simple as it should have been. Ugh what was I thinking?

Quit or Die

Quitting drug WAS my only option.  It was that or death. No I am not being dramatic.  I chose life as much as I fought against myself. I didn't want to live anymore.  I thought the way I lived was normal and if that was life, I wanted no part of it...

Is going to the bar in recovery ok?

I saw this question in a recovery group and I wanted to share it and get opinions so, what do you think?

Don't expect an overnight miracle

Recovery is often failed by people expecting to feel better and for the cravings to be gone too soon. Everyone is different and how they react to withdrawal varies. Remember,  take it one day at a time. Bad days will wiggle in and out. Some days are better than others just like real life. A bad day is no excuse to relapse.  There is no excuse for that. One day at a time folks!

Your sober image

I don't know about you but when I was on drugs, especially meth I was always oily, greasy, dirty. . Ugh even if I just showered I was a mess. It sped up my bodily functions so much that my hair and skin were just a complete filthy mess. My face was always broke out, my hair was dry and broke off so bad i had to keep it cut short. I see pictures of myself when I was high and am just like, "ohhhh wooooww yikes!"
In the last 3years of my sobriety my hair is full, soft, shiney, and ny skin is clean and clear. I don't sweat so much. My gums and teeth are healthy which they never were before. My imagine has improved ten fold. I am so happy to feel good about myself and it didn't take expensive spa visits and beauty creams, it was simply kicking the habit!

What was your quitting point?

I never imagined not doing drugs.. when it hit me that I really was doing something BAD and I wanted to stop, the epiphany smacked me so hard on the face that I woke up with a whole new energy. This was an energy that I honestly had not felt in a long time. I was usually exhausted and spent the whole day feeling bad for myself.
When I finally did understand what was the problem,  that it wasn't just boredom and my self hate, I snapped into reality amd it felt good!

YOU CAN DO IT!

The sober highway

I played the victim card beautifully when I was addicted..boy was I just the queen of dramatic episode. I knew exactly what to do and say to get sympathy. I hated that road. I even felt bad when I was doing it. I don't trudge that path anymore. My writing may appear as a cry for attention by some but it is not. I simply wish to guide and strengthen and let everyone know they don't have to walk alone like I did before I was found.
"I traveled many miles and none quite like the next were so beautiful that I wish I could see them again, only this time, sober.. and I will." By: Me!
And yes I have been on that highway in the picture. Utah...

You can't hide the addiction

Love being sober

A little old school addict advice

I am sure I have been copping out of actually writing much lately. Unfortunately I have been so busy between work, my kids who are in town for the summer, my wonderful husband, and publishing my fiction thriller Saving Anna, I have been attempting to keep up with my blog but mostly in form of picture quotes and inspiring quotes. I feel like I need to write to my readers and give them a reason to feel like I have not been ignoring their needs. 

I have people asking me questions like, "How do you cope with recovery in tough stressful situations?" 
To answer that I say:
You have to consider what is important to you. I understand that dousing the stress away with getting drunk or high is just the easiest way to forget and cover the pain and deal with it later, but the problem persists and will only get worse if you put it off. Sometimes I have problems that will stress me out for days. I take the time to close out everything else, sit down and think. I think about  what I could possibly do to solve the problem or at least lessen it until I can completely vanish it, if I can. Hiding from the problem with drugs and alcohol can seem like a good idea, but the next day you are only going to feel worse. So what is important? Staying clean and no matter how hard it is, do you push through and realize, everything happens for a reason. It really does.. or do you drown yourself in your sorrow and a bottle or a needle, or a pipe? I think the answer is obvious.

"My husband/wife just left me/cheated on me, all I can think about is getting high, what is the point of staying clean anymore?"

I answer this with:
Do you honestly think getting messed up is going to bring them back or change the fact that they were unfaithful? No!! for someone to hurt you like that, they expect you to fail. Don't give them the pleasure of being right. Be the strong one and become a better person. We are taught lessons for a reason and tested every day. Addicts are especially tested because we have to  learn our own strengths and learn we can make it without the drug. I can't tell you how many times I had a fight with my husband and I would bolt in my car thinking of going to a bar and getting smashed and driving out of that bar to who knows where..but in turn I usually just go take a drive around the lake or down the interstate going 110mph with loud screaming music and the windows down. Yes that is reckless and dangerous itself, but I forget about getting hammered and it releases my anger to where I can go home and face him. This isn't for everyone to do, but I am a very good driver and I know how to handle myself behind a wheel, not everyone can. The point it, is behind the wheel is my pressure release point. I use it as a healing tool, where as in the past getting high was my healer. Everyone has a pressure release, you just have to discover it.

"How do I fight off the urges when it is still so new to me?"
I answer:
Did you think it was going to be easy? If it was easy, then all addicts would do it. You have to get rid of the source. Once you get rid of the source, you have less chance of relapse. 

"I don't want to go to meetings and cannot afford rehab, can I do this on my own, and how?"
I answer:
I never went to meetings, I still have never been to one. I didn't go to rehab, I did this on my own. If I can, you can! Just because I am a writer doesn't make me better, I am not a certified professional. In order to be successful on your own, you have to discover what the problem behind your addiction is and get rid of it. My personal problem was, I was married to an addict, a drunk, and a very un-supportive person. I got rid of him. Yes it is easier that it sounds, but it was absolutely necessary  to my success. There was no ifs, ands, or buts. That was that. Get rid of the source. If you are your own problem, and you know you have to change yourself, then make it happen. It is not that hard. You already know you want to change and it is important, so what not start. Starting is the hardest part, the reward is beyond worth it. Do it NOW!

Any questions?

Music made me feel alive

Through most of my teen years and through most of my addiction I kept myself engrossed in my music.  I loved to play music, sing, dance, and just listen. It was an escape path for my extremely sad life. When I was living in my reality I would think about music. It was what made me happy.
We all need an outlet. If you feel sad or angry or if your addiction is destroying you, find your outlet. Music and books are mine. It is a way I can forget about the woes of my sadness or frustration. It is not silly to be a dreamer.

Networks and channels of drugs

Alcohol is also a drug

I am hosting a Facebook giveaway!

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Discovering yourself recovered

Are you the right person to give advice?

As a writer I do my best to give advice on recovery in hopes of helping someone.  When people ask me for help and explain their situation,  I don't go immediately into the, "well this is how I did it.." because my method isn't the best advice for everyone else. I listen to them and ask questions about their situation and take action from there. I try to find the best solution and still make it possible for the person I am helping to follow through because if I don't, it is possible that they will fail all thanks to bad advice.

23 million addicts

Recovery Road

An addicts recovery is a process that continues for long after they have successfully quit. Even if you never consider drugs to be a part of your life again, it is still a working progress that you must realize will always be a part of you no matter what. I sure as heck don't consider my journey over. Now, I have a new mission.

Have you broke the bonds of addiction?

My website Link

Here is the link to my website. Please come Like and share! Thanks :)  

http://www.theinspiredgirl.com/

Saving Anna

My E-book is available for sale at http://www.amazon.com/Saving-Anna-Rebecca-Wicks-ebook/dp/B00LKB0SOG/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1404682883&sr=8-2&keywords=saving+anna

I will have a paperback version up for sale soon and I will post a link!

How to be sober in a social situation

Remember,  when you go out you don't HAVE to drink and do drugs to fit in with the crown. You can be strong and still have fun. It is the one's who display the most courage are the ones who earn the respect of everyone in the room.

Have pride in your recovery

Getting that extra life..

The Need for Prescription Drug Education

Overdosing on prescription meds

Why do drugs make us feel powerful?

I couldn't honestly tell ya how often I thought so highly of myself when I was an addict.  I mean I think most of it was due to covering up to anxiety and depression but when I had my better days I sure was stupid about it. We have all seen the commercials about drugs and what they do to us inside and out. We have seen the billboards, the magazines, and so on. I used to laugh and just say, "they are just doing it wrong...that will never happen to me.". at that time I lived deeply into a fantasy world that couldn't possibly exist even though I really tried to make it so.. It took a lot of drugs to keep me there or else I had to face LIFE and that wasn't happening. I was a complete and udder mess and I got to where I couldn't be sober and face reality, I was afraid to because when I did, I hated everything I was and everything I saw. I did drugs because I thought, what was the worst that could happen? Boy, did a lot of bad things happen too. I was just too incoherent to know any better.