Sober Girl Inspired: Breaking Addiction: December 2015

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Ask me anything

I listen to a lot of people speak about struggling with relapse and staying in recovery. I find it heart breaking that so many people have so many life issues that being able to stay clean is such a struggle. I can't say that I have never tried and not failed. I know that I used to spend many days saying, I don't want you to buy anymore drugs or arguing about buying alcohol when supplies ran short. That always turned into a fight in its own because I was the only one willing to stick to it but was never given the opportunity. Of course, that isn't an excuse but when an addict is given the opportunity to use, they typically will if they don't have anyone to hold them back.

In that period of my life, I didn't know there was anyone out there that could help online. I sure as heck couldn't pay money for help, not that I didn't have the money, I wasn't allowed. I wasn't allowed to be out at meetings either because that would mean I wouldn't be at home cooking and cleaning and taking care of the kids. It turned into more than just an addiction, but into being controlled both mentally and physically.

I know many people are dealing with the same situation and my way out doesn't work for anyone. I had to leave. It meant waiting until he left for work, knowing he was at work and not coming home due to weather as his job did many days. It meant stealthy planning for weeks ahead trying to find somewhere to go where no one knew I would be. It meant leaving with no idea what was in store for the future. It wasn't easy.

Like I said, it isn't for everyone but helping people solve their problems and piece together a plan is what I am here for. If you need help and are afraid of the next step, don't hesitate to ask!