Thursday, February 27, 2014

Co-dependence Along with Addiction

So I am going off the usual track on this subject. I usually don't rant about codependancy but this morning a came across a blog on Twitter from an addiction group that follows me. They retweeted a blog from a blogger that speaks about alcoholism and codependancy. It was surprising to see if only because I nonpersonally know this person and I usually wouldn't talk about her but this is something I read over and over and I feel it is time for my own opinion on the subject. She was pretty much gloating about the fact that she is independent and no longer needs a man to keep her 'on her feet.' She says, guys ask her why she is single and says she is crazy for it.. she raves about how she doesn't need a man and how she is so much better without one and so on. She says she is miss independent because she is single. Well, if you are single living alone, you HAVE to be independent.  It isn't a life style, its an obligation. But being single or with someone doesn't justify if one is independent or codependant.
Yeah when I was with my ex I couldn't wait to be single. I wanted nothing more than to have the fun single do what I want life...but that didn't happen and I am not complaining.  I met my husband and couldn't be happier. I honestly don't enjoy being alone. I feel SOME women say they don't want or need a man because they have had numerous failed relationships and are trying to feel good about it. They cover up their sadness by filling their time fully from dawn til dusk, they adopt trying to be a social butterfly and become a closet do gooder trying to reach out to anyone and everyone who will give them time of day. That right their does not say, 'I am happy being alone.'
Codependancy as I had it in my past was difficult.  I WAS by no choice a codependant. I wasnt permitted to work so I couldn't just leave and be ok. I was forced to be stuck there, therefore the depression was high and I did a lot of drugs to try and blot out the misery.
When I met my husband now I had no intention on staying in his life. He was my outlet from my depression and drug addiction.  I was a codependant to him. Then I got a job and got on my feet. I could have run around, got my own place, been single, and become that girl mentioned above, but that doesn't make up my personality. I enjoy being with my husband. I like having someone to hold every day. But I am still a strong independent woman no matter what. I am independent because I have a career, I have a serious hobby writing books and blogs, I keep a home clean and cook because I WANT to, not because I have to. I do these things because I want to not because I have to, to get by. I contribute to my relationship,  I care for my family even if my kids are on the other side of the country. I am responsible,  I am independent. 
Being a codependant does not make you weak like stated in a lot about what I read from these blogs. Being single and living on your own isn't what makes you strong. What you do for yourself, what you do for others, how you contribute to society is what makes you a strong independent vibrant person. So stop putting a stigma on people and just focus on yourself and what you need to be, who you want to be!
I don't like hearing woman say, I don't need a man to take care of me. It isn't untrue or misleading.  Any woman can be single strong and independent for sure. But it is the ones who stereotype and gloat about it but then complain about having no one makes you sound bad.

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